Rows of Steel

It’s been 3 years, and scraping the breath
to shape these words into air
is like collecting severed fingers tips with the other hand.
I don’t understand; trust me –
never thought winning you back could feel this ugly.
I died – tried for over a year.
Called, wrote poems, left you alone,
sent letters and went to your home.
Anything I could think of…

Rows of Steele – Rose of Steel,
Tell me how the fuck am I supposed to feel?
Spanish Boots wrecked on the open sea –
Unclaimed! Left lost and found too long.
Now on the other side of the ocean free.
Yes, I remember how this was supposed to be.
Rose of Steel; Rows of Steele,
Never thought you’d ever drift home to me.

It was your choice to get free; you wrote it in stone,
then broke the mold over one knee.
I laid my nervous breakdown bare at your feet,
but Rose of Steele stood oak to the sound of its plea.
Now here you are back at my temple gate.
It was all I wanted once, but now I can’t reciprocate.
Maybe letting go was your best move.
I know I wasn’t perfect, but I would’ve never left you.

Rows of Steele – Rose of Steel,
Tell me how the fuck am I supposed to feel?
Spanish Boots wrecked on the open sea –
Unclaimed! Left lost and found too long.
Now on the other side of the ocean free.
Yes, I remember how this was supposed to be.
Rose of Steel; Rows of Steele,
Never thought you’d ever drift home to me.
Home to… Me…

I would’ve never left you;
and it feels unfair to say, but there’s nothing left to give.
I hope California treats you to more light than Providence ever did.
I still have faith and believe in you,
but I’m not overthinking it this time.
And my gut’s got a firm handle on the facts –
I made it out alive, and I’m not going back.

Rows of Steele – Rose of Steel,
Tell me how the fuck am I supposed to feel?
Spanish Boots wrecked on the open sea –
Unclaimed! Left lost and found too long.
Now on the other side of the ocean free.
Yes, I remember how this was supposed to be.
Rose of Steel; Rows of Steele,
Never thought you’d ever drift home to me.
Home to me.

Lyrics to “Rows Of Steel” written by Jared Paul, for Prayers For Atheists, originally released on Strange Famous Records.

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